being strong?

People said, You never know how STRONG you are, until being strong is your only option. But nobody ever warned me, that Sometimes being strong also means being LONELY.

Lara Tersisa

Hey kamu yang ada di sana. Di tanah Celebes, negeri para pelaut tangguh. Begitu jauhkah hati, hingga pikiran pun urung berlabuh di sudut jiwa. Di sini cinta menyisakan lara. Genangan di pelupuk mata laksana sumber air nan tak kunjung kering. Berharap. Nelangsa. Terpuruk, lalu patah. Tersadar hadir diri ini tak diinginkan, Pun mungkin tiada dikenang…

Nina, the Ms. POE (Pissed Off Editor)

Semalam, sulung saya tiba-tiba bertanya, soal kerjaan. R (sulung saya): Mamam udah berapa lama jadi jurnalis dan editor? N (saya): Totalnya? Lebih dari 12 tahun. R: Selama karier mamam, pernah ngga ngedit tulisan yang sama sekali ngga ada salahnya? N: Ngga pernah. Sama sekali gak pernah. Bahkan tulisan mamam sendiri ngga pernah perfect. Pasti ada…

HBD, my littil bunny

Wrote this on April 9, 2016. My daughter was born April 9, 1999. Time flies when you’re having fun. Raising you, surely, is fun. Because I couldn’t believe myself, 17 years have passed. Really? You were a tiny, weepy, baby, who never wanted to be touched by anyone but mommy. ๐Ÿ˜„  And look at you…

A note for my daddy

Hey, Dad. My bus just went through The HI circle in central Jakarta. Seeing the row of vegetations somehow remind me something. I remember walking down that street, maybe 33-34 years ago, with Mom. I was obviously still a little kid back then, holding on Mom’s hand. We were swimming in the Pool of Hotel…

the truth about death

It’s true that death doesn’t come by age. First, my mom. She was 58. A year later, my grandma. She was 77. And last night, my cousin. He was 4. My mom, Ida Husein died of a heart attack. She died merely an hour after feeling a massive chest pain. Finally a stroke hit her,…

Nyepi dan Shalat Gerhana di Bali

Kemarin, di Bali, ada dua event besar yang dilaksanakan bersamaan. Pertama, Nyepi bagi umat Hindu Bali. Kedua, shalat gerhana bagi umat Muslim Bali. Jumat lalu, ketika saya sowan ke Bali untuk menjenguk papa, beliau menceritakan imbauan khatib shalat Jumat siang sebelumnya, terkait Nyepi dan shalat gerhana. Khotib menyarankan hal simpel, shalat lah tanpa speaker. Apalagi,…

learned about anxiety attack

This morning, while I’m having breakfast on my office desk, I watched Markiplier’s video upload about anxiety attack simulation. It’s interesting for me, because I don’t think people around me get such attack other than panic attack. And even that, I rarely seen. Below the vid, I read so many comments about people experienced anxiety…

trusting the judgment of the experts

Entah kenapa saya mendadak teringat kejadian di suatu pagi pada tanggal 26 Desember 2004. Sekira pukul 11 hari itu saya sedang stand by di tempat tugas liputan saya, Markas Kepolisian Resort Metro Jakarta Selatan di Jalan Wijaya, Panglima Polim. Saat itu saya, bareng beberapa kawan sesama wartawan Hukrim (desk Hukum dan Kriminal) yang bertugas pos…

[CerpeNina] Maybe pt.1 – Love at First Sight?

I wrote this short story almost 15 years ago. Hope it’s still good to read.๐Ÿ˜€ It’s in bahasa Indonesia. Chapter I Love at first sight? May memasuki restoran di sebuah mall, tempat dia dan Hani janjian, tengok kiri kanan sebentar mencari Hani, sahabatnya sejak SMU. Setelah saling memanggil, May menghampiri bangku Hani, mereka berpelukan gembira…

[Movies] Spotlight. Truth

“Our story was about whether Bush fulfilled his service. Nobody wants to talk about that. They wanna talk about fonts, and forgeries, and conspiracy theories, because that’s what people do these days if they don’t like a story. They point and scream. They question your politics, your objectivity. Hell, your basic humanity. And hope to…