the most important person in my life: Papa

I will share you a little glimpse of Allah’s blessings in my life: Family! 🏡🏡🏡 This is my father. You may find his Instagram @syahrazadjazir ❤️you are welcome to follow him. He loves to share his past and present pictures. He loves the idea to digitalize photos. He is a flight attendant retiree. He flew…

When Allah Speaks

❤️ Lately Allah often speaks to me when I am in my most vulnerable moment. I just lost someone very important for me. No, not lost to the hands of death, but rather to the hands of ego—which is worse, tbh. And yesterday was our last conversation, by text. It went good and I’m glad…

When my Rabb said: Sabr

My cat, Pippi, she’s impatient sometimes. Every 5 hours she will meow, asking for food. When I opened up the fridge, she started to get noisier, impatient. I took a spoonful of canned fish onto her feeding bowl, she immediately munch herself in. Eh? I was about to give her two spoons, but well, I…

Kala Rabb-ku berkata: Sabar

Kucing saya, Pippi, kadang ngga sabaran. Setiap 5 jam dia mengeong minta makan. Saya buka kulkas, dia ribut, ngga sabar. Saya kasih ikan kalengan sesendok, dia buru-buru melahap piring makannya. Padahal tadinya mau saya kasih dua sendok ke piring makannya, ngga jadi karena terhalang kepalanya. Nanti deh nunggu kepala dia menyingkir dari piring makannya. Di…

It’s okay to move on

Life taught me, it’s easier to forgive others than forgiving yourself. 💐 But you have to. So that, you can move on. You see, it’s alright to move on and leave everything behind. Really, it’s alright.. 🤗 I know it’s very difficult to forgive someone you loved who had let you down, failed you, hurt…

the right choice vs the easy choice

I’ve heard this line, a lot. Especially from books and movies—The Core, Harry Potter (and The Goblet of Fire), are two of the movies. The first time I heard of the line was in 2004, or so, and think about it a lot ever since. I think hard and slow. My entire life—before stumbled onto…

if only you knew

If only you knew, how much Allah loves you,through me. Even though I am loving you one-sidedly,Even though every day I try my best to ignore this feeling,Even though every night I determined to make more space between you and I, As if our physical distance of two continents apart is not enough. I let…

Belajar dari Alung Banua, Manado

Pencerahan banget mengikuti videoconference Misi Teknis Capaian Layanan Infrastruktur Dasar NSUP/Kotaku di Alung Banua, kelurahan tetangga Bunaken, berlokasi di Kota Manado, Provinsi Sulawesi Utara, Indonesia. Alung Banua merupakan lokasi penyanggah/pendukung kawasan strategis pariwisata nasional (KSPN) Bunaken. Udah tau dong, Bunaken itu salah satu destinasi wisata paling “hot” di Indonesia, yang kondang dengan keindahan alam bawah…

the questions of loneliness

Is there love for me, God? Will I finally be happy, like everyone else who have found their better half? Why can’t I escape this hollow feeling, while I already have so many other things fulfilling me and be grateful for? Wise people always say, everything has its own time; things that are written for…

fatally forgotten?

Despite the uncomfortable past I had with my ex husband, he is still that type of person I can rely on many MANY things. He is that helpful type, sincere and efficient kind of guy. Even after we separated for so many years, he will always come to my aid when I asked him to….

menikah, buat apa?

Hari ini tetiba teringat obrolan dengan seorang kawan: Loe nikah buat apa? Buat punya anak? Nerusin keturunan? Emangnya loe keturunan raja, darah birunya harus dilestarikan? Penting banget? Harus banget punya anak? Mendingan loe angkat anak yatim, itu lebih bermanfaat, daripada elo menuh-menuhin dunia dgn keturunan loe yang belum tentu juga berguna bagi negeri ini. Saya…